'friend'

When i'm In my darkest and most chaotic times,
when i'm in need of someone to lend me a helping hand,
when i'm i need to share my thoughts.
i look to my 'friend', or said to be.
then i realise, that not everyone uses the term "friend" as it was intended.
personally to me, a true friend to me, is someone who can be there for you unconditionally. they are willing to help you as much as they can, be there for you positively.
this is what i intend friendship to be.
but i've had to find this out the hard way.
sometimes 'Friends' are just there for you, when they need you, but when you need them, it's as if they never exisited, as if they weren't your 'friend' at all.
Then when i'm in need of a Guidence, a 'friend' the most,
i find someone who i've not known for long, but can feel deep down in my heart that they are a True Friend. They gave me support, when i'm in need, willing to give up his own enjoyment to help me through struggle. they are there for me in my darkest times to lend me a helping hand. They help me to stand strong. This is what i call a 'True Friend'.

i miss you

I remember when you said our love was irrevocable,
but i guess you've changed your mind,
i remember when you said, i was the best thing,
but i guess i'm no longer inclined
I remember you saying you loved me,
but i guess you just pressed rewind
i remember how i obliterated your heart,
i was such a fool, so damn blind.
and I remember the times i said MY love is irrevocable,
and it still is, forever, till the end.
i remember saying you are the best thing about me
and you still are, since now, since then
i remember every moment that we're appart,
it's like i've been missing my heart, and my friend
i remember telling you i miss you,
but i guess you just didn't comprehend
i remember saying i love you,
but you won't give me the chance, to say it again..